wow! just awful

6 months since my last post

I really haven't had anything that I've wanted to talk about.  lots of thing happened, but I guess I just wasn't in the mood to talk all about it.  you know, everyone has an opinion and everyone thinks they are more knowledgeable about everything that happens to everyone else, I guess I didn't feel like opening that window.

last year both Tim and I were sick.  by sick I mean more like his body was doing less than it should and my body was less than it should and we were both in the hospital for different things.  I actually had to stay for a day and a half in July.
I mentioned Tim's stomach problems.  He's better now, but it's still a mystery as to why it all happened at all.
I had kidney stones that were causing trouble.  they were painful, yeah.  but they were also bigger than would be able to pass on their own.  so I had one removed and was scheduled to have two more removed in August but then I postponed that procedure until after we knew more about Tim's stomach.  all was fine until October when I again was in the ER.  so at my followup appointment 2 days later we scheduled all my pre-op tests and physical and had the other two stones removed a few weeks later.
after that another test and we are waiting on the results to see if I am going to be needing medication to keep them from forming or if I can keep them controlled by making sure I never let myself become dehydrated.

but all that going on in my life last year I didn't get anything more done about getting fit.  it all became very difficult to fit that in with doctor appointments and managing family.
I'm sure you're thinking, "just take your kids with you".  have you ever tried taking a walk with at least 1 - 4 kids.  the level of stress you experience is far greater than any physical benefit you might get.  but you don't get any physical benefits from walking with you kids (or my kids) and here's why.  they stop and complain every three minutes.  if they are not complaining of their legs or feet or back hurting (these are skinny kids, mind you.  look through the blog there are pictures) they are "so thirsty" and constantly stopping the convoy to have a water break.
because of this utter failure to get pretty because my kids constantly hinder my weight loss goals, I will be joining my area rec center which has a gym and a walk track (also a pool that I will never be caught dead in a swim suit so I will never use it).  I figure if I spend that kind of money maybe people will be able to deal with me not being around here for an hour a few nights a week. also I won't be taking any of them with me so I will be able to go at my pace instead of a snail's pace.
maybe this year I might get that habit established enough and build my stamina enough that maybe next year I just might do the Susan G. Komen 3 day walk.